Last year when this all began I hated the thought that I had to wait 2 months to see if the medicine helped. That that was the biggest focus was just changing my meds. I didn't want to just sit around and wait. And I hated thinking that the medication was the key. I wanted to actively be DOING something to help MYSELF. THERE HAD TO BE MORE. And thats when I encountered a post about self care on Pinterest and it changed the game for me. I became intrigued with that because I NEEDED to feel taken care of. I needed to feel like I could personally contribute to my healing because it was MY body and MY mind. Medication is amazing, and i've been on it for years, but sometimes i have felt like it is just a bandaid, or a crutch and I don't want to be on it forever. It's not FIXING the problem or taking it away, it's just something to HELP. I wanted something MORE. And I found it.
So one thing led to another and I dove into the world of self care, yoga, reflexology, energy healing, meditation, chakras, mantras, positive thinking, the law of attraction, healing my body from the inside all the way to the outside.
I started to learn and study and research and try soooo many new things! It was my new focus in my life because I had faith these things would help. And i felt very much guided towards them and I was willing to try anything. It was a little hippy dippy and hokey pokey at first, because it was unfamiliar. But I just went with it and I am so so so grateful I did.
I watched as day by day it changed my life for the better. It didn't happen all at once, but gradually I began to see a HUGE difference that all of these things made in my anxious and troubled life. It began a journey of self love and self acceptance. Of healing from past events. Of forgiving others and forgiving myself. It led me closer to God, to feel the spirit in my life easier. It taught me about how every single pain and ailment in our life is caused because of SOMETHING in our minds- an experience, a thought, a problem, an event- THEY ARE ALL LINKED TOGETHER. I saw in my personal life how my anxiety, my perfectionism, my neck pain, my headaches-- they each were linked to something that had happened or an emotion that I was having or something I was going through. I learned how past events shaped me. And learned things about myself I never would have realized otherwise. I DOVE DEEP YOU GUYS. Talk about soul searching and soul reawakening- this stuff is real. And I know it sounds hippie hippie but there is also science behind this and some of these beliefs have been around for years and years and years. Skeptical? Read the book You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. It will change your life. It has changed mine and is a great way to start venturing and learning about this whole new way of life.
So, right now, I am at a point in my life where I am managing my anxiety and panic disorder FOR THE MOST PART. I still have my trials. I still have my mountains and things that are hard to mange. I still have limitations, but I am farther than where I was a year ago. And if these tools could help me when I was at my lowest of lows, i wonder what they will do for me when I am at my medium of mediums- haha not a thing but you know what I mean.
So I am diving back in and going to start focusing back on my self care and morning/nightly routines. Today I took a few hours to do this, and I literally feel like my soul is happy and I know I am headed in the right direction for what my life needs at this time.
I am participating in an incredible 7 Day challenge to help heal my body from the inside out and I would love for you to join me. The amazing Sydney from The Daybook is hosting it in a Facebook group and you can start it whenever and go at your own pace and begin to learn more about yourself and healing.
xoxo
Bailey
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